Fraulein14

Hai Ayah Sudah lama kita tidak bertegur sapa Sudah lama juga kita saling bercerita Kira-kira sudah berapa lama ya? Mungkinkah ada sepuluh tahun lebih? Rasanya seperti baru kemarin Rasanya rumah ini tak lengkap tanpa kehadiranmu Iya benar..Sudah sepuluh tahun bahkan lebih dari itu Setiap kali aku ingat, rasanya airmataku tak bisa ku tahan Dulu Ayah sering menceritakan cerita dongeng Cerita dongeng sebelum aku tertidur lelap Cerita yang membuat aku mempunyai harapan Kisah pengantar tidur yang tidak pernah gagal membuatku tersenyum Namun kini ketika aku beranjak dewasa Kini anakmu sudah tumbuh besar Hahaha..ya tumbuh besar seperti yang bisa Ayah bayangkan Benar Ayah kata mereka, aku terlalu besar Aku terlalu besar sampai-sampai aku bisa menghancurkan rumah Aku terlalu besar sehingga aku terlihat tidak menarik Aku terlalu besar sampai-sampai mereka berpikir bahwa aku tak berotak Aku terlalu besar sampai-sampai tak ada suatu hal yang cocok bagiku Aku pikir dulu see...

Dear myself, Hello! Greetings from the past I am here to be a self note to you I am here to cheer you up, since nobody truly understand you unless I, you Yeah only you alone who understand So... How long has it been happened? Do you cry often when that thing comes up in your mind? Or do you cry in secret so nobody knows that actually it makes you dying? Now I want to tell you CRY AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! SCREAM LOUDLY! CURSE THAT THING! But end up DO NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID Look at yourself Chin up This storm will passed by like any others C'mon! I know you are strong I know you worth everything in this world It's only people don't know how precious you are Don't you know People feel insecure about themselves there're some people who jealous at your life People jealous at each other That's why we are human Don't you realize you had been through this shi+ not only once you had been through this since kid Can't you see how ...

Hello! I would like to make F.A.Q about all the posts here, so in the future there won't be any misunderstanding. The reason why finally i make up my mind to make a ''F.A.Q'' post because these days people seem to be quite sensitive, yet they have negative thinking over something which related to their situation. Therefore here the F.A.Q i want to clarified about my babies (my posts) HOW DO YOU FIND INSPIRATION FOR YOUR POST ? It's easy, i read books (novel, comic, magazine, e-book, articles, newspaper, and a light knowledge book). Also, sometimes i watch over the social environment about some issues and i try to put myself in 'that' situation, so i'm able to write my post. {i read, i watch, i learn, i experience as if it's mine}. Sometimes 'that' may turn into something I'd like to tell to myself {a note to myself}. WHY DO YOU POST MOSTLY IN ENGLISH ?  I post in my blog mostly in English since English is commonly spoken all ...

Sudah Lima tahun sejak aku berada di tempat ini.. Akhirnya aku BEBAS!! YA! BEBAS!! HAHAHA Tapi tunggu...Mengapa kaki ku enggan melangkah setapak pun? Mengapa langkah ku terasa berat? Oh..Rupanya setan-setan itu tidak membiarkan aku pergi dari tempat ini Mereka seolah menahan aku dan bergembira karena aku tertahan Ya..Memang harus aku akui, bahwa aku tidak menyukai tempat ini sejak Lima tahun yg lalu Lima tahun lalu ya.. Seperti membuka luka yg sudah mulai aku lupakan, tapi rasa sakitnya tetap membekas Tempat dimana aku merasa Tuhan membuang aku Tempat dimana aku merasa aku dibenci oleh Tuhan Bagaimana tidak? Saat pertama aku pijakkan kaki ku di tempat ini, cacian dan hinaan yg aku dapat, padahal aku tak begitu paham dengan tempat ini Di tempat ini mereka menganggap aku aneh karena aku berbeda, Mereka menganggap aku aneh karena aku hanyalah seorang anak yatim, kecil dan tak berdaya Disini aku merasakan perbedaan yg begitu besar dibanding tempat aku berasal Bahka...

Celastrus orbiculatus the original bittersweet The most known as bittersweet Do you know why it called so? I think you're already know the reason The flavor is  sweet with a bitter aftertaste. Its flavor has common with us These all happened on the day i fall for you Falling in love..again For a long time i made you wait I was glad, because you gave me time it tasted sweet With our story It has common, or it's an coincidence  Do you know why i tell you so? Bittersweet is the only word that can represent how i feel right now about you Bittersweet is the only flavor i'm getting along so well It happened when i choose to look at you It happened naturally After so long i felt the sweet taste For a long time i didn't realize you were there till you told me how you feel till you made your presence in my life till one day i realize you were always there On that day i couldn't love you back not because i didn't love you i wasn't...

God is the Holy one we know We call God by different names We trust God as our savior God never lets us down, always there to catch us God knows us the best more than anyone else  God sends His soldiers to spread His love  God loves us like a Father loves his children But why human judges others so easily? Why human treat others with no love? Why human act as if they’re God Why…?  Why human become like that these days? Do they know that they could die anytime?  Do they know that God has power in our world? I think.. they forget  Human doesn’t remember about God anymore Human leaves God , and live in their own understanding  I hate human, but I’m a human  So, does it mean I hate myself? If I hate myself then I hate all of people around the world, aren’t i?  If I hate people in the world then I have no love inside me? So in conclusion, it means I’m the same with them  /sighs/ I can’t deny that facts  But someti...

I think i'm lost I lost everything i had once I lost my smile.. yeaah i lost my reason to smile I had done my best to follow your footsteps I had done my best so i can be in the same level as you I adore you from a long time ago but still you walk away you're gone So then i lost my hope I lost everything i had fight for I think i dont have to try so hard I will just let it flow Let life takes me to somewhere i don't know Time passed by i heard you already had someone Well, someone.. yeah someone you love when you're away That means i'm completely forgotten by you That means i need to move on my life Should i try? Should i try to move on so i can forget you? But i can't.. until he comes along An annoying man, yet how can my heart beats whenever he near me? No! i can't fall for him He;s my rival, how can i fall for someone i hate He underestimate me once, though in the other side he cares a lo...

Sudah kah topeng ku terlepas? atau justru topeng itu melekat pada diriku yang sesungguhnya? Apakah topeng itu terpasang dengan benar di wajahku? Apakah ada sisa bagian wajah ku yang terlihat oleh mereka? Aku lelah memakai topeng ini ingin rasa nya aku lepaskan dan aku buang Namuun sayang, topeng ini sangat penting di dunia sandiwara topeng ini identitas ku di hadapan mereka Bilamana aku mengitari pekarangan rumah ku  tak ku dapati seseorang melepas topeng mereka Bilamana aku beraktivitas di luar rumah banyak aku lihat orang-orang membawa lebih dari 1 topeng Aku terkadang lupa bahwa aku berkewajiban memiliki lebih dari 1 topeng Topeng seperti apalagi kah yang harus aku kenakan? Topeng yang seperti apa yang akan terpasang di wajahku? Apakah topeng untuk mengelabui mereka? atau topeng untuk kesenangan diriku? Sandiwara apalagi yang perlu aku mainkan saat ini? Banyak naskah yang telah ku baca, namun penonton masih haus akan topengku Banyak naskah sudah terci...

"Please don't fall in love with someone new" that's what i told my heart after experience my first love broke my heart into pieces I thought my heart could listen to my brain I thought my heart could cooperate not to fall but i was wrong I was too naive Yeah.. too naive when it comes about love A sweet love which makes me cheerful A sweet love which makes me diligent A sweet love which gives me a chance to dream Until one day my brain speaks up " he has changed" "he won't love me back" "It will always one sided love" "he did it just to flirt every girls" "don't let the guard down when he's being nice" but.. it's too late i'm desperate to talk with him everyday i think about him and it makes me smile brightly i have a wide imagination about him..spend my leisure time with him, having a lovey dovey moment having a silly conversation till joking around...