Fraulein14

Aku takut, ya aku takut Aku lelah sangat lelah Aku butuh istirahat, meletakkan kepala dan badan ku di ranjang Aku lelah dengan diriku, dengan lingkungan ini, dengan kehidupan ini Aku ingin bebas dan lepas tanpa peduli perkataan mu, perkataan mereka terhadapku Aku hanya ingin menjadi diriku sendiri Aku tidak bisa menjadi seperti yang mereka mau Bahkan mereka sendiri tidak bisa menjadi yang seperti aku mau Lalu mengapa mereka memaksa ku? Lalu mengapa mereka tidak menerima ku? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk hidup? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk bersosialisasi? Apa aku hanya pantas untuk menjadi bahan ejekkan mereka? Mengapa? Ibu, apakah Ibu terpaksa melahirkan dan membesarkan aku? Ibu apakah ibu terpaksa menyayangi aku? Apakah ibu benar-benar paham tentang aku? Mengapa ibu lebih membela mereka saat mereka katakan aku psikopat? Mengapa Ibu lebih membela mereka yang menyakiti aku? Apakah ibu tahu, dahulu aku berbuat kasar untuk melindun...

Friends ? All what people wants  A little thing that can mess  A thing that we try to protect, to love, to forgive. Love ? Yeah,so easy to say L-O-V-E but.. can you do ''LOVE'' your friends with all yours ? so easy to say L-O-V-E but.. will you always understand your friends ? Protect ? world is hard world is cruel Have you ever been thinking '' why should i need them,while in other hand i can't even take a good care of my life?'' or ''why need to care about their life too while my life is suffering?'' SELFISH, EGO!!! YEAHH That's what we trully are!! Wants to put our aim first Wants to hear a compliment from others yeah yeah yeah~~  So .. CAN YOU PROTECT YOUR FRIENDS WHILE YOU CAN'T PROTECT YOU ? FORGIVE ? ''It's easy to forgive friends then enemies'' that's what we usually hear right? but in fact ? It's hard to forgive your friends...

Telinga Tuhan tidak kurang tajam untuk mendengarkan doamu,bahkan jeritan hatimu,Dia tahu. Tangan Tuhan tidak kurang panjang untuk menolong,hanya Dia mau kamu untuk menunggu dan percaya Mata Tuhan tidak pernah terpejam,tak sedetikpun berkedip memandang dari Surga tentang hidupmu. Hanya 1 Suara Tuhan. Dapatkah kamu mendengar Dia? Dapatkah kamu dengar Dia memanggil namamu dengan lembut,melebihi kekasihmu,melebihi suara musuhmu,melebihi kicauan burung? Buka telingamu untuk Dia Buka hatimu untuk Dia masuki Lapangkan hatimu bekerja bersama YESUS ♥

Time passed.. Life must go on.. People left and come. Life and people are changing That's how do i feel, that's how do i see about life.. How will i survive with this scars? How will i live while the wounds still exist? How will i able to live in my life when i even can't accept it? It's almost 1 year since being betrayed, being dumped well yeah i always face being dumped and betrayed but this time it's different i don't know how should i explain it, but it seems the most painful,the worst betrayal ever that i ever experienced in my life.. I try to move forward to live in my life to face what's going on in reality yeahh i can face my life i can live in my life now thanks to those betrayal thanks to those who left this scars thanks to those who once make me afraid to continue my life even i'm afraid to love my idols Especially i thank God for sending someone to cheer me up for sending someone to make me realize i deserve to...

When i feel like no one cares about me When i saw he left me and dumped me When i realize my friends betrayed me When i saw i'm alone here I got myself weaken I got myself shivering I feel like dying alone But.. I can hear a voice whispering me softly I feel like in the most warm tender ever It makes me realize Yeah there's only one who loves me the most It's YOU,JESUS I can see,You are waiting for me all the times I can feel You hugged me when i'm alone I realize that You wipe out my tears when i'm crying I can feel You hear my heart when it's screaming loudly You hold my hand tight so i can't fall apart You protect me from all those enemies You have showed me the unconditional Love You are always there to be my strength when i'm down To be honest i'm still miss everything about him i'm still remember the sweet times You allowed me to spend with him..   that's all i miss about him.. But,You Lord You ...

I can still remember like yesterday We were so in love in a special way And knowing that your love will make me feel oh so right But now I feel lost, don’t know what to do Each and every day I think of you Holdin’ back the tears, I’m trying with all my might Because you’ve gone and left me standing all alone And I know I’ve got to face tomorrow on my own.. Before I let you go I want to say I love you You’ll be forever in my heart And I know that no one else will do, Letting love go is never easy But I love you so That’s why I set you free And I know Someday Somehow I’ll find a way To leave it all behind me… - freestyle “before i let you go” Maybe I was just a stepping stone for you to get to that point in your life where you’d figure out what you wanted, or didn’t want. So to prove to you that I love you so much,  i will step aside and set you free… but promise me you wont give up of your dreams, make them all come true. Smile and be happy. and take care o...

"I like being alone. At least I convince myself i'm better off that way" Sometimes yeah i must admit that words,but sometimes i hate being alone.   I hate being alone.. I hate left behind alone.. I hate feels like unwanted,unknown,neglected BUT Please don't act like you are really care Please don't say i'm gonna be okay like you were in my position once Please don't say that sweet words in fact you have hurt me once Please don't ever try to comfort me if you are gonna hurt me again I prefer to be alone here with no one care I prefer to be un-recognize to be hurt for many times  I like being alone this way Looking at people through the street with a bright smile Looking at couple holding hands and hug each others Looking at you and them live happily out there with no pressure I like stay in the corner of the dark alone Pretending like someone will come over and care about me Pretending...

  It's hard... I can't lie to myself if it's not. Even though i say it's not,it becomes more painful deep in my heart. How can I forgive them when i know my heart still feels then pain ? How can i forgive myself when i can't heal that wounds ? How can I forget those bad memories when they still exist in my life? Should i kill them ? or should i kill myself ? What should i do then ? How can I back to the old me when there're a lot of wounds,pain and nightmare around me How can I be my own self when I know that I have been dumped and negelcted I can't even show the world my bright smile,like i did once when i saw them having fun when i feel the sorrow I can't even remember how was my life look like before this pain, was it interesting? was it fun? I don't know who I am right now, I'm lost I'm here in the place where i don't belong to I'm here .. yeah .. standing here.. alone. It's so scary,facing these ...