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The Day After Pain

Time passed..
Life must go on..
People left and come.
Life and people are changing
That's how do i feel,
that's how do i see about life..

 How will i survive with this scars?
How will i live while the wounds still exist?
How will i able to live in my life when i even can't accept it?



It's almost 1 year since being betrayed, being dumped
well yeah i always face being dumped and betrayed but this time it's different
i don't know how should i explain it, but it seems the most painful,the worst betrayal ever that i ever experienced in my life..
I try to move forward to live in my life
to face what's going on in reality

yeahh i can face my life
i can live in my life now
thanks to those betrayal
thanks to those who left this scars
thanks to those who once make me afraid to continue my life even
i'm afraid to love my idols

Especially i thank God
for sending someone to cheer me up
for sending someone to make me realize i deserve to be loved
i deserve to have a bright future..

Whenever i'm alone..
whenever i have no one to talk,to share deep inside
I have God in my prayer
I have those people who being sent by God to make me stronger..

And nowww...


I realize that i'm strong not because my strength

I'm able to continue my journey not because my courage

I have people who cheer me up not because i'm kind or cute or whatever people said..


IT'S THANKS TO GOD :)


I feel like in here God tries to change meI Feel like God tries to show me how i suppose to livehow i suppose to spend my lifeto whom i suppose give my heartto whom i suppose trust
God tries to make me become wiseyeahh as you know it's through all the painit's through all the bad words which come forwardit's through all the failureit's through all the bad temper



This time i will try my best
cause i want to change
i want to be better
i don't want to lose to my pain
i don't want to lose to those betrayal

not because of revenge or karma
but i want it for my own sake
i want it for my happiness
I want it as my gratitude to God



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