Fraulein14

I'm seriously shocked to know God really hears my pain,my sorrow,and even my prayer about the time i passed in Roleplayer *if you had read my post you will know why* I just.. well i suppose not being like a happy person on people's sorrow yeahh to be honest i'm not happy I just feel relived. Good night Lord, It's been a long time You make me survive facing those betrayal,facing those who had betrayed me. You control my mind and my behave how to act and speak in front of those betrayal.  It was hard and painful inside me.. But,somehow i believe that's for my own sake I feel blessing to face this first cos i believe there's a rainbow after my unstoppable rain There will be someone new who will do better and tonight i don't wanna be happy cos of those who betrayed me has a pain i don't wanna said ''yeah you see that's for what you did''  NOO!! Tonight .. I wanna thank You Lord for always stay by my side for al...

I have a lot beautiful things once i know they won't last forever and i'm glad to have them even just for once I'm a kind of a fragile one I'm kinda sensitive when something mess up with things i love I'm kinda possessive if it's about 'MINE' Things i had once already gone People i love and care about too They're gone left me with this pain,wounds and scars which hard to be cured Afraiddd... that's how i feel right now Tireddd.. i wish i have someone to lend me their shoulder i wish i have someone to open their ears to listen to my sorrow i wish i have someone to back up my back when i fall But it won't happen.. I'm sick of this tears I'm tired of listening those mock How could she said that i'm not deserved to get his love again? how could she said i want him form something? yeahh! i want him for something.. I want him to know that was hurt,even it hurts until my bone I feel like being numb I...

The day i spent in this world Every hours,minutes even in any seconds i do have a lot of wishing list which i hope could be granted But i realize yeah i realize Who wants to stay beside a person like me? idiot,ugly,bitc*h,stupid,poor,dummy ah yeah all bad things like they said and talk about me But the day i met you, i thought it will disappear I thought i will be safe in your tender but it's all wrong I felt another mock,another dump i turn back into my miserable life, a life where i don't want to live in yeahh alone, all alone Why it's always me who fight to death for people i love,but they don't? Why always me who suffering alone,with no one by my side? Why i never have someone who can i entrust? Why i don't have someone who will step in front of me whenever people mock me,whenever i'm alone? I had one.. It was you DAD! :'( Why you have to leave me forever,alone here it's dark over here.. i'm afraid there's no o...

Summer is coming up~ That means no more school A holiday season. The first day in Summer the Sun's shine coming up greet all people in the town accompany all to spend their vacation But not to me.. That's too hot it's almost burn me oh... i think i have fever all of sudden since the time we were seperated something is missing missing you like crazy in this summer under the sun's shine which almost burn me Can't you see my pale face? Can't you heart yearning of my heart? Don't you know i'm turn into pieces seeing you and her spend time together serenade whole the time receive a lot of romantic and a beautiful words I guess this time its fair This season really know the painful i feel I hope i could stay in this illness better than seeing you and her

Delusion is a belief held with strong conviction despite superior evidence to the contrary it is distinct from a belief based on false or incomplete information, confabulation, dogma, illusion, or other effects of perception.   Through all this time All the moments we had back then The way we laugh,talk,loving each other, just a delusion All the confession,the promises,seemed so real The warmth of your tender,when i was hugged it was so real in my insight but knowing the truth  That you were just pretending.. Acting like i was the only one A Delusion.. It was such a delusion,wasn't it? The time finally we met again, but you're gone The time i spent to fight alone The time i spent for waiting But the fact..i got nothing.. Oh! Wait! I REALLY GOT SOMETHING!! THEIR MOCK,THEIR BAD WORDS TO ME THE FEEL OF HATE THE FEEL OF WISHING I NEVER EXIST!!  ALSO THE WAY YOU SAY "YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT COMPARE TO THEM! YOU'RE BI...

When i feel like no one cares about me When i saw he left me and dumped me When i realize my friends betrayed me When i saw i'm alone here I got myself weaken I got myself shivering I feel like dying alone But.. I can hear a voice whispering me softly I feel like in the most warm tender ever It makes me realize Yeah there's only one who loves me the most It's YOU,JESUS I can see,You are waiting for me all the times I can feel You hugged me when i'm alone I realize that You wipe out my tears when i'm crying I can feel You hear my heart when it's screaming loudly You hold my hand tight so i can't fall apart You protect me from all those enemies You have showed me the unconditional Love You are always there to be my strength when i'm down To be honest i'm still miss everything about him i'm still remember the sweet times You allowed me to spend with him..   that's all i miss about him.. But,You Lord You ...

Remember the old times Looking at the memories which always coming in my mind whenever i'm alone.. Looking at myself in front of the mirror "Why you are so miserable?" "You're not deserve to be happy,just look around people left you" "You're just a glitch in their life, no need to fight for him anymore,he's already hers he's already gone, he's already mocking you,he's already said you are just a shi*t'' But i keep asking my self ''Why do i still care,when i know it hurts?" "Why do i have to cry,when i know he won't care?" "Why should i scream loudly in a lonely place when i know no one would care?" Tried to hold back my tears not to fall B-b-b- but it's hard Tried to hate you,tried to forget B-b-b- but still whenever i'm alone, listen to the songs we used to play Oh.. i forget your heart already hers your mind full of hers I bet,you already forget your promis...