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I have a lot beautiful things once
i know they won't last forever
and i'm glad to have them even just for once

I'm a kind of a fragile one
I'm kinda sensitive when something mess up with things i love
I'm kinda possessive if it's about 'MINE'

Things i had once already gone
People i love and care about too
They're gone
left me with this pain,wounds and scars which hard to be cured

Afraiddd...
that's how i feel right now
Tireddd..
i wish i have someone to lend me their shoulder
i wish i have someone to open their ears to listen to my sorrow
i wish i have someone to back up my back when i fall

But it won't happen..

I'm sick of this tears
I'm tired of listening those mock
How could she said that i'm not deserved to get his love again?
how could she said i want him form something?
yeahh! i want him for something..
I want him to know that was hurt,even it hurts until my bone

I feel like being numb
I'm afraid to love..
even to love my ownself

Look at me! i'm just nothing compared to her :'(
I'm just a BIG,FOOL,STUPID girl here
HAVE NO TALENT
NOT BEAUTIFUL
NOT SEXY
fight alone
fight for nothing

cry a lot
cry for those who already mock at me
for those who already want me to disappear forever


is that true that i;m not really deserved anything?

I know that she's BEAUTIFUL,SEXY,SMART,RICH,TALENTED
but me i'm just yeah you know a trash..



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