Fraulein14

Dear myself, Hello! Greetings from the past I am here to be a self note to you I am here to cheer you up, since nobody truly understand you unless I, you Yeah only you alone who understand So... How long has it been happened? Do you cry often when that thing comes up in your mind? Or do you cry in secret so nobody knows that actually it makes you dying? Now I want to tell you CRY AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! SCREAM LOUDLY! CURSE THAT THING! But end up DO NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID Look at yourself Chin up This storm will passed by like any others C'mon! I know you are strong I know you worth everything in this world It's only people don't know how precious you are Don't you know People feel insecure about themselves there're some people who jealous at your life People jealous at each other That's why we are human Don't you realize you had been through this shi+ not only once you had been through this since kid Can't you see how ...

After a long long way After taking a lot of time to wait After faces all those pains learning from that wounds how to stand up and stay strong To be honest i never worry if my tears fall for a million times i never worry when i'm alone cos i used to be alone, yeah alone sits here till someone recognize my presence but it's different now we're not close enough but you listen to my sorrow to open up your ears to hear my pain your encouragement.. your smile.. your eyes.. time passed.. i feel something different about you i'm not sure what it supposed to be could it be love? How can i fall after having lots of trauma from thing called love? I don't know how to react in front of you all things seem wrong I'm automatically smile just seeing you from a far could it be love? After being hurt for a lot of time After felt the way being neglected but all i want right now just looking at you and smile stay near you and i can...

i don't know why these two days lately i keep crying my tears don't want t o stop falling even when ii stops,my eyes still want to make my tears fall i wonder when will my old life back? i wonder will i able to grow strong through all this pain? it's hard,they're too many,and i'm here alone they're good looking,famous,rich,has a good position in people eyes but me..yeah you know just a loser i wonder if i could have someone who always there to back me up, i thought those who always listen to my story will help me when those people who dumped me,mock at me .,.yeah when those hurt me but i was wrong... yeahh..this's my life,miserable huh? -sigh- i don't need to be pitied i don't need people to say ''i'm here", "be strong", "cheer up", "you'll be fine" all those words are bullshit.. where are they when those hurt me? will they come? ohhh~~ how lucky being those who has...

Summer is coming up~ That means no more school A holiday season. The first day in Summer the Sun's shine coming up greet all people in the town accompany all to spend their vacation But not to me.. That's too hot it's almost burn me oh... i think i have fever all of sudden since the time we were seperated something is missing missing you like crazy in this summer under the sun's shine which almost burn me Can't you see my pale face? Can't you heart yearning of my heart? Don't you know i'm turn into pieces seeing you and her spend time together serenade whole the time receive a lot of romantic and a beautiful words I guess this time its fair This season really know the painful i feel I hope i could stay in this illness better than seeing you and her

Finally another spring comes A new story is waiting for me right now While past still following me wherever i am One Fine Spring Day . . The first day in the new spring A first greet from you i got Makes me smile I feel there's a hope for me to get close to you But my mind denies that it won't So then i remember another things who left me last winter yeah,the sadness winter All the happiness i have for a short time All the days i had wished for But now it's all gone.. So what? I decide to make a new happiness I'm sure i'll find it. Waiting for so long I met someone.. Who can lend shoulder when i cry Who hugs me when i cry Who listen to my painful heart I feel like having a brother My heart keep asking me ''Why don't you try to love him like you love the one who already left you?" I answer it "I'm afraid" I'm not afraid to love I'm just afraid to lose I'm afraid to feel the pain As yo...

Spring.. A new start A new story Another life need to continue A new adventure wait Spring when all the flowers are blooming When a wind start to greet us in early morning When all the birds are singing beautifully When loves start to be shared to everywhere   You will find people smile brightly in the spring You will find a happiness whenever you see a beautiful scenery You will start a new adventure which you don't know the ending   Summer . . A holiday.. Feels so hot.. Feels like melt.. We need something fresh in the summer It was almost the end of summer when the first time i saw you The first time i hoped i can get close with you But so impossible,too many barriers at that time Then i realized i was hoping too much Last summer,met you just like an oasis Feels so real,when actually it's not Dreaming about you to be mine but it won't happen Time passed yeahh we finally talked to each other then i did that stupid confession...