Fraulein14

Dear myself, Hello! Greetings from the past I am here to be a self note to you I am here to cheer you up, since nobody truly understand you unless I, you Yeah only you alone who understand So... How long has it been happened? Do you cry often when that thing comes up in your mind? Or do you cry in secret so nobody knows that actually it makes you dying? Now I want to tell you CRY AS MUCH AS YOU WANT! SCREAM LOUDLY! CURSE THAT THING! But end up DO NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID Look at yourself Chin up This storm will passed by like any others C'mon! I know you are strong I know you worth everything in this world It's only people don't know how precious you are Don't you know People feel insecure about themselves there're some people who jealous at your life People jealous at each other That's why we are human Don't you realize you had been through this shi+ not only once you had been through this since kid Can't you see how ...

Aku takut, ya aku takut Aku lelah sangat lelah Aku butuh istirahat, meletakkan kepala dan badan ku di ranjang Aku lelah dengan diriku, dengan lingkungan ini, dengan kehidupan ini Aku ingin bebas dan lepas tanpa peduli perkataan mu, perkataan mereka terhadapku Aku hanya ingin menjadi diriku sendiri Aku tidak bisa menjadi seperti yang mereka mau Bahkan mereka sendiri tidak bisa menjadi yang seperti aku mau Lalu mengapa mereka memaksa ku? Lalu mengapa mereka tidak menerima ku? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk hidup? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk bersosialisasi? Apa aku hanya pantas untuk menjadi bahan ejekkan mereka? Mengapa? Ibu, apakah Ibu terpaksa melahirkan dan membesarkan aku? Ibu apakah ibu terpaksa menyayangi aku? Apakah ibu benar-benar paham tentang aku? Mengapa ibu lebih membela mereka saat mereka katakan aku psikopat? Mengapa Ibu lebih membela mereka yang menyakiti aku? Apakah ibu tahu, dahulu aku berbuat kasar untuk melindun...

I'm tired I'm sick of being here..stuck.. doing all the same things, everyday. I'm tired .. i think i need more holidays and sleep But So then i choose to remain in silence Keep silent is the best way right now Keep in silent day after day How should i react these day? I don;t have any idea of living these days Sometimes i have idea to end my life..to give up But, myself keep asking "Why did i start all of this work?" So then, i told myself to stay.. hold on! Just hanging in here till i run of energy I feel like a dead-body but still alive I feel like i can't do anything properly due to my tiredness I can't even think wisely I can't manage myself to be me But why i can remember you clearly? I can remember your name I..automatically run to you when i'm out of energy Am i already in love with you? WHAT? LOVE?! NO WAY! That's not true, isn't it? Please somebody...