I'm sick of being here..stuck.. doing all the same things, everyday.
I'm tired .. i think i need more holidays and sleep
But
So then i choose to remain in silence
Keep silent is the best way right now
Keep in silent day after day
How should i react these day?
I don;t have any idea of living these days
Sometimes i have idea to end my life..to give up
But, myself keep asking "Why did i start all of this work?"
So then, i told myself to stay.. hold on!
Just hanging in here till i run of energy
I feel like a dead-body but still alive
I feel like i can't do anything properly due to my tiredness
I can't even think wisely
I can't manage myself to be me
But why i can remember you clearly?
I can remember your name
I..automatically run to you when i'm out of energy
Am i already in love with you?
WHAT? LOVE?!
NO WAY!
That's not true, isn't it?
Please somebody say it's not true
I'm sick of love story
I'm sick of lovey-dovey stuffs
I used to fall in love with someone who didn't love me
I used to spend my life waiting for the uncertainty
Yeah..like today, i'm waiting for the uncertainty
The uncertainty about my future
No!
Could it be that i'm waiting for you?
I feel like dying whenever i imagine you will hurt me
I feel like i have no hope for falling again
So i choose to remain in silent
I choose loving you the way i always did
Stay in silent is better than i confess
Stay in silent could protect my smile whenever i think about you
I'm not that kind of girl guys fall in love
I'm not that kind of any girls
I'm.. I am
I have my own way to love
I have my own way to stand still in this tiredness of love
I wish someday this tiredness would go far away
I wish i didn't feel any emptiness like this anymore
I wish i could fall for myself more than i fall for you
I wish we would never meet in the future
I wish..though i wish that not
But, i'm not ready to face tomorrow or even the next day or the other next
OTL
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