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i don't know why these two days lately i keep crying
my tears don't want t o stop falling
even when ii stops,my eyes still want to make my tears fall

i wonder when will my old life back?
i wonder will i able to grow strong through all this pain?
it's hard,they're too many,and i'm here alone
they're good looking,famous,rich,has a good position in people eyes
but me..yeah you know just a loser





i wonder if i could have someone who always there to back me up,
i thought those who always listen to my story will help me when those people who dumped me,mock at me .,.yeah when those hurt me
but i was wrong...

yeahh..this's my life,miserable huh?
-sigh- i don't need to be pitied
i don't need people to say ''i'm here", "be strong", "cheer up", "you'll be fine"
all those words are bullshit..
where are they when those hurt me?
will they come?



ohhh~~ how lucky being those who has hurt me,dumped me,left me full of sorrow
 how lucky to those who was born to be famous,good looking and rich,they will win people heart more easily than me
they can get all they want without any struggle
they can grab all things they want
yeahh.. not like me,who always lost everything,even people i love

 

God~ i know that maybe someday when i check this all i write in here i may say ''how stupid i was,how can i be weak so easily" or even maybe i will laugh at my own self
but today..
i wanna wait in silence
i wanna love in silence
but still i will keep my faith,cos with out You,God i can't stand still like this here :'(

I will wait for Your justice,in my future life~~

 







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