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A Day dream




The day i spent in this world
Every hours,minutes even in any seconds
i do have a lot of wishing list which i hope could be granted

But i realize
yeah i realize
Who wants to stay beside a person like me?
idiot,ugly,bitc*h,stupid,poor,dummy
ah yeah all bad things like they said and talk about me

But the day i met you, i thought it will disappear
I thought i will be safe in your tender
but it's all wrong

I felt another mock,another dump
i turn back into my miserable life, a life where i don't want to live in
yeahh alone, all alone

Why it's always me who fight to death for people i love,but they don't?
Why always me who suffering alone,with no one by my side?
Why i never have someone who can i entrust?
Why i don't have someone who will step in front of me whenever people mock me,whenever i'm alone?

I had one..
It was you DAD! :'(
Why you have to leave me forever,alone here
it's dark over here.. i'm afraid
there's no one would understand the way you understand me dad :'(

All the wish i hope just like a day dream
They do exist but just like in dream
when you;re awaken they will disappear
when time passed you will be forgotten in no time

This life is like a day dream
It's a nightmare for me

Alone, with no one here
I just hope when i'm awake from this bad day dream or we call nightmare
i can see a bright one
i can have the nice real life

God,can i just feel that for the rest of my life?
I'm tired of this tears,
I'm tired of suffering alone
always being the loser,the idiot,the bitc*h
I want be the center of attention
i want have someone who is not pretending to be nice to me
can i? ._.)

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