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Delusion

Delusion is a belief held with strong conviction despite superior evidence to the contrary
it is distinct from a belief based on false or incomplete information, confabulation, dogma, illusion, or other effects of perception.

Through all this time
All the moments we had back then
The way we laugh,talk,loving each other, just a delusion
All the confession,the promises,seemed so real
The warmth of your tender,when i was hugged
it was so real in my insight but knowing the truth 
That you were just pretending..
Acting like i was the only one

A Delusion..
It was such a delusion,wasn't it?

The time finally we met again, but you're gone
The time i spent to fight alone
The time i spent for waiting
But the fact..i got nothing..

Oh! Wait!


I REALLY GOT SOMETHING!!

THEIR MOCK,THEIR BAD WORDS TO ME

THE FEEL OF HATE

THE FEEL OF WISHING I NEVER EXIST!!

 ALSO THE WAY YOU SAY

"YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT COMPARE TO THEM! YOU'RE BI*TCH, JE*RK, GET OUT OF MY INSIGHT"

"I HATE YOU, YEAH!!"

Don't you remember that?

i just have to realized that

i'm just nothing to anyone
i'm just a shi*t in people life
no one never glad i do exist

I guess you're right
Oh~ not only you, but all your guardians also your lovely girl


So this's what world looks like
Even when we do believe in our feeling we love someone
But it's only a delusion
a wrong perception 

Could it be more interesting believe in my heart again?
Will all the delusion thing gone?

Can i live for once when i feel i worth to be living in a society?

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