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Please break my heart Lord


"Please don't fall in love with someone new"
that's what i told my heart after experience my first love broke my heart into pieces

I thought my heart could listen to my brain
I thought my heart could cooperate not to fall
but i was wrong
I was too naive
Yeah.. too naive when it comes about love

A sweet love which makes me cheerful
A sweet love which makes me diligent
A sweet love which gives me a chance to dream

Until one day my brain speaks up

" he has changed"
"he won't love me back"
"It will always one sided love"
"he did it just to flirt every girls"
"don't let the guard down when he's being nice"

but.. it's too late

i'm desperate to talk with him everyday
i think about him and it makes me smile brightly
i have a wide imagination about him..spend my leisure time with him, having a lovey dovey moment
having a silly conversation till joking around together

But it was just an illusion
A dream..
Yup.. a dream which always make me sleep tight
but it's gone when i wake up

until one day my brain says

"he's not yours"
"he's never be yours"


So, dear Lord please hear my prayer

please break my heart immediately
just take away all these sweet things from my mind
just take it away with all the memories i have with him

I fall for him, i do
but i'm hesitate
i'm afraid
i have no courage
i have no right to feel this way

so please break my heart Lord
before i fall for him too deep
before i live in my delusion

just break my heart Lord..before he breaks my heart
break my heart Lord for the sake of him and i

tell me Lord that we're not meant to be
tell me Lord that i don't fall for him
just tell me Lord that You'll break my heart

so then i can restart
so then i can keep my heart for the right guy

Please break my heart Lord
because my heart was made to be broken in case of a love story




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