Fraulein14

The day i spent in this world Every hours,minutes even in any seconds i do have a lot of wishing list which i hope could be granted But i realize yeah i realize Who wants to stay beside a person like me? idiot,ugly,bitc*h,stupid,poor,dummy ah yeah all bad things like they said and talk about me But the day i met you, i thought it will disappear I thought i will be safe in your tender but it's all wrong I felt another mock,another dump i turn back into my miserable life, a life where i don't want to live in yeahh alone, all alone Why it's always me who fight to death for people i love,but they don't? Why always me who suffering alone,with no one by my side? Why i never have someone who can i entrust? Why i don't have someone who will step in front of me whenever people mock me,whenever i'm alone? I had one.. It was you DAD! :'( Why you have to leave me forever,alone here it's dark over here.. i'm afraid there's no o...

Summer is coming up~ That means no more school A holiday season. The first day in Summer the Sun's shine coming up greet all people in the town accompany all to spend their vacation But not to me.. That's too hot it's almost burn me oh... i think i have fever all of sudden since the time we were seperated something is missing missing you like crazy in this summer under the sun's shine which almost burn me Can't you see my pale face? Can't you heart yearning of my heart? Don't you know i'm turn into pieces seeing you and her spend time together serenade whole the time receive a lot of romantic and a beautiful words I guess this time its fair This season really know the painful i feel I hope i could stay in this illness better than seeing you and her

Delusion is a belief held with strong conviction despite superior evidence to the contrary it is distinct from a belief based on false or incomplete information, confabulation, dogma, illusion, or other effects of perception.   Through all this time All the moments we had back then The way we laugh,talk,loving each other, just a delusion All the confession,the promises,seemed so real The warmth of your tender,when i was hugged it was so real in my insight but knowing the truth  That you were just pretending.. Acting like i was the only one A Delusion.. It was such a delusion,wasn't it? The time finally we met again, but you're gone The time i spent to fight alone The time i spent for waiting But the fact..i got nothing.. Oh! Wait! I REALLY GOT SOMETHING!! THEIR MOCK,THEIR BAD WORDS TO ME THE FEEL OF HATE THE FEEL OF WISHING I NEVER EXIST!!  ALSO THE WAY YOU SAY "YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT COMPARE TO THEM! YOU'RE BI...

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Dari semula T’lah Kau tetapkan Hidupku dalam tanganMu Dalam rencanaMu Tuhan Rencana indah T’lah Kau siapkan Bagi masa depanku Yang penuh harapan Reff: S'mua baik, s’mua baik Apa yang t’lah Kau perbuat Di dalam hidupku S’mua baik, sungguh teramat baik Kau jadikan hidupku berarti.

When i feel like no one cares about me When i saw he left me and dumped me When i realize my friends betrayed me When i saw i'm alone here I got myself weaken I got myself shivering I feel like dying alone But.. I can hear a voice whispering me softly I feel like in the most warm tender ever It makes me realize Yeah there's only one who loves me the most It's YOU,JESUS I can see,You are waiting for me all the times I can feel You hugged me when i'm alone I realize that You wipe out my tears when i'm crying I can feel You hear my heart when it's screaming loudly You hold my hand tight so i can't fall apart You protect me from all those enemies You have showed me the unconditional Love You are always there to be my strength when i'm down To be honest i'm still miss everything about him i'm still remember the sweet times You allowed me to spend with him..   that's all i miss about him.. But,You Lord You ...

I can still remember like yesterday We were so in love in a special way And knowing that your love will make me feel oh so right But now I feel lost, don’t know what to do Each and every day I think of you Holdin’ back the tears, I’m trying with all my might Because you’ve gone and left me standing all alone And I know I’ve got to face tomorrow on my own.. Before I let you go I want to say I love you You’ll be forever in my heart And I know that no one else will do, Letting love go is never easy But I love you so That’s why I set you free And I know Someday Somehow I’ll find a way To leave it all behind me… - freestyle “before i let you go” Maybe I was just a stepping stone for you to get to that point in your life where you’d figure out what you wanted, or didn’t want. So to prove to you that I love you so much,  i will step aside and set you free… but promise me you wont give up of your dreams, make them all come true. Smile and be happy. and take care o...

because deep inside me is a little girl, so vulnerable, so helpless, weak, scared, full of longing,… ..so when the tears stream down my face, and I don’t have anything to say, don’t ask me why I’m cryin. Because I simply don’t know. Just hold me. I just want to be held. I just want to find someone who won’t run away. Someone to look me in the eyes and tell me it’s okay that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy. Today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better.

Remember the old times Looking at the memories which always coming in my mind whenever i'm alone.. Looking at myself in front of the mirror "Why you are so miserable?" "You're not deserve to be happy,just look around people left you" "You're just a glitch in their life, no need to fight for him anymore,he's already hers he's already gone, he's already mocking you,he's already said you are just a shi*t'' But i keep asking my self ''Why do i still care,when i know it hurts?" "Why do i have to cry,when i know he won't care?" "Why should i scream loudly in a lonely place when i know no one would care?" Tried to hold back my tears not to fall B-b-b- but it's hard Tried to hate you,tried to forget B-b-b- but still whenever i'm alone, listen to the songs we used to play Oh.. i forget your heart already hers your mind full of hers I bet,you already forget your promis...

Time passed quickly Who knows that Spring almost over We had just begun a new page in a new life But that doubt,pain,betrayal keep coming like a shadow It's almost the end of Spring's page in that book It's written all the stories which happened I even hadn't had chance to fix all the mess but end up with another mess I though we could stop having argument but not 'You and your shit negthink, i hate you, you even meaningless to me' Yeah another mocked Another truth revealed. The truth is all this time you were pretending All this time i'm the only one who be pitied by you and your guardians I guess I'm wrong Why did we have to meet if we end up like this? End up with mocking each other No,i'm not mocking you Stupid me right? Still care when know it hurts 'Yes maybe we can back like we used to be if you back like you used to be' Me?Changing? Isn't it you who are changing? I'm act like this to defend myfel...

if you can stuck at her why i can't? if she can spend a romance whole day with u why i cant? why being her who had u back in time was full pf romance.. but me only being pervert,am i a sextoy? why ? no one can explain it i have open up my mind, my heart but i'm too afraid it feels like it's unfair all men are the same only think about their selfishness all men are cold, including you idiot don't act nice of sudden if whole time you always cold me to me, i'm not that stupid for you it's just a game cos you don't hurt the same though i had told you everything but /sigh/ yeah i'm meaningless, i just nothing to you is that so easy for people to forget about me? why? don't pretend to be nice cos you are pitied to me i hate it,it hurts I'm sick of this tears I'm tired I don't know what suppose to do It's only me who try to fight for It's so nice to be her who always being remembered not only y...

At the time i saw the words you said It makes me realize how stupid i am It makes me realize that i was so lucky I did something stupid back in time And It makes me wish for a time machine Bring me back to that time so i don't need to make a mistake But if i did it will we ever met? Will i become stronger and stand on my own feet like right now? Will i able to be independent person like who i am now though i'm still fragile But it makes me realize i have my own reason why i have to delete you I have my own goal to reach I have my own reality to face Honestly it's hard.. I guess i'm too sensitive *sigh* I hate this I just hope i can keep pretending in front of you that i don't care that sometimes i don't wanna remember that time But this's my fate.. Unlucky.. I was born to live in this fate I try to keep a distance I try to pay attention to another I try not to care why you have to say that again *Ahhhh i'm not hoping ...

Aku lupa bagaimana cara untuk mencintai Aku lupa bagaimana rasanya mencinta Aku lupa nikmat nya dicandu asmara Aku tak tahu bagaimana cara 'tuk mencinta Aku seakan tak pantas menulis sebuah puisi cinta tentangmu Aku bahkan tak pantas melukiskan apa yang ku rasa tentangmu Aku tak pantas bermimpi untuk merasakan nikmat cinta itu Aku tak pantas bermimpi tentang rasa ku pada mu Jalan panjang berliku,harus terputus Kebahagiaan itu terhenti Senyuman hangat itu hilang Dekapan yang membuatku nyaman musnah sudah Pahit untuk dapat tersenyum Seakan ada tembok besar menghalangi langkah kakiku Terpisah.. Ya ini sudah takdir Kita takkan bisa seperti dahulu Dirimu hanya bisa ku pandang namun tidak ku gapai Dirimu hanya akan abadi dalam semua mimpi ku Nama mu kan selalu teringat dalam tiap kata yang ku tuliskan Kenangan itu hanya ada diingatan masing-masing Meski terlihat bodoh Meski aku tak berarti Bahkan jika aku menghilang Tulisan ku tentang mu lah yang abadi Hany...

Finally another spring comes A new story is waiting for me right now While past still following me wherever i am One Fine Spring Day . . The first day in the new spring A first greet from you i got Makes me smile I feel there's a hope for me to get close to you But my mind denies that it won't So then i remember another things who left me last winter yeah,the sadness winter All the happiness i have for a short time All the days i had wished for But now it's all gone.. So what? I decide to make a new happiness I'm sure i'll find it. Waiting for so long I met someone.. Who can lend shoulder when i cry Who hugs me when i cry Who listen to my painful heart I feel like having a brother My heart keep asking me ''Why don't you try to love him like you love the one who already left you?" I answer it "I'm afraid" I'm not afraid to love I'm just afraid to lose I'm afraid to feel the pain As yo...