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Game Over

At the time i saw the words you said
It makes me realize how stupid i am
It makes me realize that i was so lucky
I did something stupid back in time



And It makes me wish for a time machine
Bring me back to that time so i don't need to make a mistake
But if i did it will we ever met?
Will i become stronger and stand on my own feet like right now?
Will i able to be independent person like who i am now
though i'm still fragile

But it makes me realize i have my own reason why i have to delete you
I have my own goal to reach
I have my own reality to face

Honestly it's hard..
I guess i'm too sensitive
*sigh* I hate this
I just hope i can keep pretending in front of you that i don't care
that sometimes i don't wanna remember that time

But this's my fate..
Unlucky..
I was born to live in this fate

I try to keep a distance
I try to pay attention to another
I try not to care
why you have to say that again

*Ahhhh i'm not hoping that, i'm just getting confused*

Throw my heart away that's what i need to do
But being a heartless it's hurting my own self
It's hurting to say that i don't care about people or you or whatever

*ohh come on girl you have your own reality to face*
I'm glad to see you write that things
I'm glad i'm not thinking about it again *less than before*
your words waking me up
yeahh though to be honest you were one who motivated me to study
Though i feel like i lose the reason and the spirit to live or even to be like i used to be
I'll be myself no matter how
But still i don't know how say it clearly
I even can't understand my mind

One thing i know that between us  It's  over (._.)

 

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