Time passed quickly
Who knows that Spring almost over
We had just begun a new page in a new life
But that doubt,pain,betrayal keep coming like a shadow
It's almost the end of Spring's page in that book
It's written all the stories which happened
I even hadn't had chance to fix all the mess
but end up with another mess
I though we could stop having argument but not
'You and your shit negthink, i hate you, you even meaningless to me'
Yeah another mocked
Another truth revealed.
The truth is all this time you were pretending
All this time i'm the only one who be pitied by you and your guardians
I guess I'm wrong
Why did we have to meet if we end up like this?
End up with mocking each other
No,i'm not mocking you
Stupid me right?
Still care when know it hurts
'Yes maybe we can back like we used to be if you back like you used to be'
Me?Changing?
Isn't it you who are changing?
I'm act like this to defend myfelf
when no one here in my side.
But you always respond me coldly, when i try to be nice
'But whenever i talk to you,you keep talking about the past pain,your shit mind. You need to relax your mind'
I had relaxed my mind
I asked you nicely but i got a cold respond
I will only get your respond whenever i talked about it
Now I'm end up as the bad one
End up with all those mocked coming back to me
Against me
Yeah again.. just alone
Not like the one who you love
The one who you say precious
why her?not me?
Did i talk about pain when we were together?
You promised not to leave but you dumped me for her
You spent whole time with all nice promises,and sweet romantic words to her,
but to me only a shits and pain
Why you don't even understand it hurts to know it's all just pretending
It hurts to know you were playing game with me but with her not!
God, am i not deserve to find someone who will fight for me
for someone who never let me go
for someone who will comforts me whenever my bad mind coming up ?
God, is this my fate always end up as the bad one?
Does karma do exist?
You are fair,right God
I have fight for something i lost alone
Survive when they mocked me
Keep smiling though it hurts seeing the fact
I had told all i feel, all in my mind but still unrecognize
Do they only recognize me as someone who keep talking about past pain?
Will they always respond me coldly and end up to mocked me as much as they want?
I just have my ownself
all i can do only hugging my own self
crying in the dark so no one can hear.
Sometimes in the corner i imagine being her
i imagine being them
Who has everything i lost
Who has people fight for them
caring about them,loving them so much
heard someone say that i'm precious
Having someone who will stand by my side when they mocked me
Sometimes i imagine being her in your tender,
Serenade by a romantic songs
Dedicate with a handmade
Promised with a romantic pinky promises
God . . . ~
I guess it will never happen
cos to him i'm already disgusting
He already said i'm just nothing to him,he loves her and care about her much
it's normal,cos they spent time more.
It will never comes true
Cos this's~ Another Sad Ending
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