Fraulein14

It's all started with all misunderstanding and it;s already end by you left me behind I didn't have chance to explain All things i did...nothing Just waiting..waiting for the right time to explain But, then i realize we'll never be the same All the misunderstanding will never be clear I saw you left and i'm here..right now alone (again) I spend my time to improve myself I dare myself to move on I train myself to love without you But, the other day i saw you... I saw you  you were smiling..but not in front of me you're too far away I didn't know that day you notice me then you walked away you locked yourself from you try to warn me that i dont need to explain you try to show me you're happy with her that's why you unlocked yourself then show off So do you think it's funny? Is it fun to show off? Do you think it's a game? once you locked yourself, then you unlocked! I ain't that easy boy...

I think i'm lost I lost everything i had once I lost my smile.. yeaah i lost my reason to smile I had done my best to follow your footsteps I had done my best so i can be in the same level as you I adore you from a long time ago but still you walk away you're gone So then i lost my hope I lost everything i had fight for I think i dont have to try so hard I will just let it flow Let life takes me to somewhere i don't know Time passed by i heard you already had someone Well, someone.. yeah someone you love when you're away That means i'm completely forgotten by you That means i need to move on my life Should i try? Should i try to move on so i can forget you? But i can't.. until he comes along An annoying man, yet how can my heart beats whenever he near me? No! i can't fall for him He;s my rival, how can i fall for someone i hate He underestimate me once, though in the other side he cares a lo...

Sudah kah topeng ku terlepas? atau justru topeng itu melekat pada diriku yang sesungguhnya? Apakah topeng itu terpasang dengan benar di wajahku? Apakah ada sisa bagian wajah ku yang terlihat oleh mereka? Aku lelah memakai topeng ini ingin rasa nya aku lepaskan dan aku buang Namuun sayang, topeng ini sangat penting di dunia sandiwara topeng ini identitas ku di hadapan mereka Bilamana aku mengitari pekarangan rumah ku  tak ku dapati seseorang melepas topeng mereka Bilamana aku beraktivitas di luar rumah banyak aku lihat orang-orang membawa lebih dari 1 topeng Aku terkadang lupa bahwa aku berkewajiban memiliki lebih dari 1 topeng Topeng seperti apalagi kah yang harus aku kenakan? Topeng yang seperti apa yang akan terpasang di wajahku? Apakah topeng untuk mengelabui mereka? atau topeng untuk kesenangan diriku? Sandiwara apalagi yang perlu aku mainkan saat ini? Banyak naskah yang telah ku baca, namun penonton masih haus akan topengku Banyak naskah sudah terci...

"Please don't fall in love with someone new" that's what i told my heart after experience my first love broke my heart into pieces I thought my heart could listen to my brain I thought my heart could cooperate not to fall but i was wrong I was too naive Yeah.. too naive when it comes about love A sweet love which makes me cheerful A sweet love which makes me diligent A sweet love which gives me a chance to dream Until one day my brain speaks up " he has changed" "he won't love me back" "It will always one sided love" "he did it just to flirt every girls" "don't let the guard down when he's being nice" but.. it's too late i'm desperate to talk with him everyday i think about him and it makes me smile brightly i have a wide imagination about him..spend my leisure time with him, having a lovey dovey moment having a silly conversation till joking around...

Aku takut, ya aku takut Aku lelah sangat lelah Aku butuh istirahat, meletakkan kepala dan badan ku di ranjang Aku lelah dengan diriku, dengan lingkungan ini, dengan kehidupan ini Aku ingin bebas dan lepas tanpa peduli perkataan mu, perkataan mereka terhadapku Aku hanya ingin menjadi diriku sendiri Aku tidak bisa menjadi seperti yang mereka mau Bahkan mereka sendiri tidak bisa menjadi yang seperti aku mau Lalu mengapa mereka memaksa ku? Lalu mengapa mereka tidak menerima ku? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk hidup? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk bersosialisasi? Apa aku hanya pantas untuk menjadi bahan ejekkan mereka? Mengapa? Ibu, apakah Ibu terpaksa melahirkan dan membesarkan aku? Ibu apakah ibu terpaksa menyayangi aku? Apakah ibu benar-benar paham tentang aku? Mengapa ibu lebih membela mereka saat mereka katakan aku psikopat? Mengapa Ibu lebih membela mereka yang menyakiti aku? Apakah ibu tahu, dahulu aku berbuat kasar untuk melindun...

Sweet and sour Smile and tears That's how i feel when i'm in love I feel a lot of emotions that you may never understand I feel them..alone I keep in silent when i'm in love People said it's beautiful when you're in love People said falling in love is the best thing People said all the good things but they never told me the bad one They never told me about this pain They never said about being alone here They never said that loving someone makes you depressed Well it's true It's always~~ That's why i told you It's sweet and sour Loving you just like a raspberry It hurts when i realize we can't be together but it's sweet when i realize i'm in love with you Loving you is like had a raspberry in my mouth The more i taste it in my mouth the more feelings come Sweet.. Then sour After that sweet then sour like a cycle..like a loop Those feelings won't go away Loving you from this distance is the safe pla...

It's been a while since our last meeting It's been a while since we see each other It's been a while but it feels like a long term that we don't meet It feels like we don't even know each other But, can you guess? I get use to this situation And i think you feel that way too Could it be called 'Distance' ? A number that can be measured A number that keep us apart Well, i guess that;s it D I S T A N C E So then, let's keep some distance between us for now on Please stay in your zone forever So i can try to stay in my zone forever I know already the consequences I know there'll be something to pay I know it's hard for me But, stay here, looking at you from a far away very far.. It's a good scene I'll take the risk if i try to touch you I'll take that.. well actually already! It hurts to have distance between us It is hurt.. It is weird to stay like this But, hey hey! Don't pity me because...