Fraulein14

Aku takut, ya aku takut Aku lelah sangat lelah Aku butuh istirahat, meletakkan kepala dan badan ku di ranjang Aku lelah dengan diriku, dengan lingkungan ini, dengan kehidupan ini Aku ingin bebas dan lepas tanpa peduli perkataan mu, perkataan mereka terhadapku Aku hanya ingin menjadi diriku sendiri Aku tidak bisa menjadi seperti yang mereka mau Bahkan mereka sendiri tidak bisa menjadi yang seperti aku mau Lalu mengapa mereka memaksa ku? Lalu mengapa mereka tidak menerima ku? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk hidup? Apa aku tidak pantas untuk bersosialisasi? Apa aku hanya pantas untuk menjadi bahan ejekkan mereka? Mengapa? Ibu, apakah Ibu terpaksa melahirkan dan membesarkan aku? Ibu apakah ibu terpaksa menyayangi aku? Apakah ibu benar-benar paham tentang aku? Mengapa ibu lebih membela mereka saat mereka katakan aku psikopat? Mengapa Ibu lebih membela mereka yang menyakiti aku? Apakah ibu tahu, dahulu aku berbuat kasar untuk melindun...

Sweet and sour Smile and tears That's how i feel when i'm in love I feel a lot of emotions that you may never understand I feel them..alone I keep in silent when i'm in love People said it's beautiful when you're in love People said falling in love is the best thing People said all the good things but they never told me the bad one They never told me about this pain They never said about being alone here They never said that loving someone makes you depressed Well it's true It's always~~ That's why i told you It's sweet and sour Loving you just like a raspberry It hurts when i realize we can't be together but it's sweet when i realize i'm in love with you Loving you is like had a raspberry in my mouth The more i taste it in my mouth the more feelings come Sweet.. Then sour After that sweet then sour like a cycle..like a loop Those feelings won't go away Loving you from this distance is the safe pla...

It's been a while since our last meeting It's been a while since we see each other It's been a while but it feels like a long term that we don't meet It feels like we don't even know each other But, can you guess? I get use to this situation And i think you feel that way too Could it be called 'Distance' ? A number that can be measured A number that keep us apart Well, i guess that;s it D I S T A N C E So then, let's keep some distance between us for now on Please stay in your zone forever So i can try to stay in my zone forever I know already the consequences I know there'll be something to pay I know it's hard for me But, stay here, looking at you from a far away very far.. It's a good scene I'll take the risk if i try to touch you I'll take that.. well actually already! It hurts to have distance between us It is hurt.. It is weird to stay like this But, hey hey! Don't pity me because...

I'm tired I'm sick of being here..stuck.. doing all the same things, everyday. I'm tired .. i think i need more holidays and sleep But So then i choose to remain in silence Keep silent is the best way right now Keep in silent day after day How should i react these day? I don;t have any idea of living these days Sometimes i have idea to end my life..to give up But, myself keep asking "Why did i start all of this work?" So then, i told myself to stay.. hold on! Just hanging in here till i run of energy I feel like a dead-body but still alive I feel like i can't do anything properly due to my tiredness I can't even think wisely I can't manage myself to be me But why i can remember you clearly? I can remember your name I..automatically run to you when i'm out of energy Am i already in love with you? WHAT? LOVE?! NO WAY! That's not true, isn't it? Please somebody...

It was starting with a simple hello With that greet after few years we haven't talked to I didn't know what was that for But i felt so warm, so comfortable when you accompany at that night I didn't understand how should i react Should i feel happy? or should i feel nothing A crybaby like me feel grateful for having you by that time I was thinking at that time, Father in Heaven sent you to cheer me up I was also thinking the opposite one..That it was just a coincidence And the next morning i find that you're gone All the conversation had gone I tried to catch you, but i had no idea where're you I felt like a fool It hurts I felt like you're making fun of me I felt like you're playing with me Tho deep inside i feel that you're always being nice to me but...well it hurts somehow Time passed.. And there were you who greet me again YEAH AGAIN! with a simple hello With a random topics, with a spice little care  I t...

Bulan telah berlalu tanpa aku sadari setelah aku putuskan untuk melupakan mu Tahun pun telah berganti sejak keputusan itu ku ambil.. Pikiran ku tak lagi mengingat diri mu, bibir kuu tak lagi memanggil nama mu dalam tiap lamunan ku, dalam khayal ku Aku bahkan berpikir dengan logika ku saat ini "Bagaimana aku bisa jatuh hati pada mu waktu itu?" "Bagaimana bisa aku masih mengharapkan semua seindah dulu?" "Bagaimana agar aku bisa menjaga supaya dirimu masih ada dalam genggaman?" Otak dan pikiran ku menentang semua kenangan yang pernah terjadi, memaksa untuk tidak mengingat dan berharap lagi Namun hati ku berbisik kepada logika "seandainya aku bisa kembali ke masa itu dan mengatakan ya aku memiliki rasa" akankah semua menjadi baik-baik saja? Logika ku kembali bergejolak memikirkan semua kemungkinan yang bisa terjadi.. Mesin waktu Kembali ke masa itu, memperbaiki rasa sakit yang kau alami atas jawaban yang aku berikan Kembali ke ma...

This post will be my first post after not posting anything at all. Since Christmas is coming so i wanna write for being thankful to God for things happen in 2015 Thank you isnt enough for all bless i got Thank you wont be enough for problems and obstacles i face Thank you isnt a correct word to describe how thankful i am There's no exact word that i could say There's no action i cant do right now There's only tears..tears of joy for being too happy I am not lucky.. i am blessed It's all good cause of God It's all fine cause of God It seems terrifying in the beginning, but with You i can through it all My body was shaken at firsth, my hearts doubts, my mind were crazy I thought i wold lose my patient I thought i would lose my fight But You Lord, say the opposite You save me!! You resucued me!! You healed me!! You covered me up by Your wings I feel great I feel safe in Your tender Thank you Lord for all bless i may feel for all pains...