Fraulein14

Sedikit memang tapi perlahan kini aku mulai memahami dengan perlahan aku mulai mengerti ya..aku mulai mengerti apa maksud Tuhan membiarkan aku bisa bertahan sejauh ini masih bisa berdiri kuat dengan tegar dan simpulan senyum yang masih bisa ku tunjukkan sendiri.. ya memang akan selalu sendiri perlahan aku menikmati kesendirian perlahan aku mulai menyukai keadaan ini terbuang.. ya memang,aku tak pernah pantas berada dalam komunitas apapun suara ku tak dihiraukan kehadiran ku pun mungkin tak pernah didambakan jika ya,pasti hanya karena ingin memanfaatkan memang...semua manusia seperti itu aku memahaminya . dilupakan.. itu hal wajar.. tak perlu lagi dipertanyakan mengapa mudah aku dilupakan mengapa mudah untuk melupakan ku aku tak pernah berbuat banyak untuk kamu,dia,mereka atau bahkan untuk semua orang aku seolah bersikap acuh tak acuh padahal aku ini peduli tapi maaf kenyataan nya tak sejalan dengan keinginan ku jika aku bisa marah,aku ingin marah jika aku d...

i don't know why these two days lately i keep crying my tears don't want t o stop falling even when ii stops,my eyes still want to make my tears fall i wonder when will my old life back? i wonder will i able to grow strong through all this pain? it's hard,they're too many,and i'm here alone they're good looking,famous,rich,has a good position in people eyes but me..yeah you know just a loser i wonder if i could have someone who always there to back me up, i thought those who always listen to my story will help me when those people who dumped me,mock at me .,.yeah when those hurt me but i was wrong... yeahh..this's my life,miserable huh? -sigh- i don't need to be pitied i don't need people to say ''i'm here", "be strong", "cheer up", "you'll be fine" all those words are bullshit.. where are they when those hurt me? will they come? ohhh~~ how lucky being those who has...

I have a lot beautiful things once i know they won't last forever and i'm glad to have them even just for once I'm a kind of a fragile one I'm kinda sensitive when something mess up with things i love I'm kinda possessive if it's about 'MINE' Things i had once already gone People i love and care about too They're gone left me with this pain,wounds and scars which hard to be cured Afraiddd... that's how i feel right now Tireddd.. i wish i have someone to lend me their shoulder i wish i have someone to open their ears to listen to my sorrow i wish i have someone to back up my back when i fall But it won't happen.. I'm sick of this tears I'm tired of listening those mock How could she said that i'm not deserved to get his love again? how could she said i want him form something? yeahh! i want him for something.. I want him to know that was hurt,even it hurts until my bone I feel like being numb I...

The day i spent in this world Every hours,minutes even in any seconds i do have a lot of wishing list which i hope could be granted But i realize yeah i realize Who wants to stay beside a person like me? idiot,ugly,bitc*h,stupid,poor,dummy ah yeah all bad things like they said and talk about me But the day i met you, i thought it will disappear I thought i will be safe in your tender but it's all wrong I felt another mock,another dump i turn back into my miserable life, a life where i don't want to live in yeahh alone, all alone Why it's always me who fight to death for people i love,but they don't? Why always me who suffering alone,with no one by my side? Why i never have someone who can i entrust? Why i don't have someone who will step in front of me whenever people mock me,whenever i'm alone? I had one.. It was you DAD! :'( Why you have to leave me forever,alone here it's dark over here.. i'm afraid there's no o...

Summer is coming up~ That means no more school A holiday season. The first day in Summer the Sun's shine coming up greet all people in the town accompany all to spend their vacation But not to me.. That's too hot it's almost burn me oh... i think i have fever all of sudden since the time we were seperated something is missing missing you like crazy in this summer under the sun's shine which almost burn me Can't you see my pale face? Can't you heart yearning of my heart? Don't you know i'm turn into pieces seeing you and her spend time together serenade whole the time receive a lot of romantic and a beautiful words I guess this time its fair This season really know the painful i feel I hope i could stay in this illness better than seeing you and her

Delusion is a belief held with strong conviction despite superior evidence to the contrary it is distinct from a belief based on false or incomplete information, confabulation, dogma, illusion, or other effects of perception.   Through all this time All the moments we had back then The way we laugh,talk,loving each other, just a delusion All the confession,the promises,seemed so real The warmth of your tender,when i was hugged it was so real in my insight but knowing the truth  That you were just pretending.. Acting like i was the only one A Delusion.. It was such a delusion,wasn't it? The time finally we met again, but you're gone The time i spent to fight alone The time i spent for waiting But the fact..i got nothing.. Oh! Wait! I REALLY GOT SOMETHING!! THEIR MOCK,THEIR BAD WORDS TO ME THE FEEL OF HATE THE FEEL OF WISHING I NEVER EXIST!!  ALSO THE WAY YOU SAY "YOU'RE NOT IMPORTANT COMPARE TO THEM! YOU'RE BI...

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