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Universe (Dear God)

Hi universe, do you mind if I borrow you shoulder to rest my head for a while?
Do you mind listening to my story which I couldn't tell even to the closest one?
Recently, well to be exact in this 6 months I realize that nobody truly understand, I can't even understand myself. What is my speciality, will I do something great for my future, or will I end well in this world or end up like a piece of junk.
These thoughts are burdens to me since I've seen and I've through unforgetable memories which cannot be accepted easily cannot be forgiven easily even to let it go.

I used to see the world with people with harmony and kindness, but it changes when I grow up
Some elders already warn me about the real world
But the point is, even the kids nowadays don't have their freedom like I used to have

So now I'd like to say the real world isn't easy even for kids
World isn't safe anymore and I'm afraid something will vanish human right away
I may nt a fortune teller or someone they call indigo but sooner or later I can feel it, you, the Universe will make the world, humans pay for everything

And right now I confuse
Why should I confess that way when I am,myself alone is a human? Don't I have many sins so I too can be vanished away?or I, right now is waiting to be vanished?

I got lot of stuffs stuck on my head
I got stuffs to be unloaded to you but it's hard to mention it one by one
As you know, life isn't a fairy tale which has a happy ending
Life cannot be predict easily but life can be controlled by those people who has power, money, and influence to affect others..

Whenever I remember it I get myself frightened,
If I could I would stay and do nothing stay at my comfort zone here

But..

I can't stand it anymore
I get tired
I have no one as back up
I have no one listening to me
I have those who underestimate me whole time
I only have those who don't care how much I, or my kinds or even other with their disabillities done the best work we've ever tried

It seems like there's no satisfaction inside the world
It always hungry, isn't it funny?
The humans,world who did that to us just as the same as me and my kind who hungry all the times..
Me,and my kinds get hungry to fulfill our stomach but them hungry to fill their other stomach(es)

I can see how they never care the struggle when my kinds try to lost their weights, to get a good score even just 5 points higher, to get over from their ex(es), to star a new life due to their depressions

They, humans,worlds never care about it..
They only see the surface, the cover, the smile we put on
They'd easily say as if they've been throught the same field like us
Don't they know that our battlefield are different?
We cannot compare our battle one to another
We can't either said our battle is harder

I don't tell you, universe that my kinds' battlefield and those people (with disabbilities') are harder than people who underestimate us.. It just feel irritating

It just feel like they suck up our energy like a vampire energy then drown us to death
So then we have no hope left

To be honest yeahh..
I feel like me,my kinds and those people seem have no hope left
But at the same time we feel like we have some hope which I can't explain

That's why do you mind lend me your ears and should for a moment to restore my life energy? To restore my belief of living?
So when the right time is coming I, my kinds and those people will speak up

'About the Universe who always have us back'

And everything we've done will be paid off someday soon..
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