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Bad Means Good While Good Means Bad

Have you ever heard the phrase "Don't Judge The Book by Its Cover"?
How about the phrase "Good Girl always Love Bad Boy"?
There are the lot of Phares that reminds us about life that may end up surprising us about the fact


Once I'm mistaking salt for being like a sugar
I thought that care about people around is a must but then I forget how to love myself equally
I thought to fulfill my parents' expectation would bring me happiness but end up I do something halfheartedly
It is good to fulfill parents' expectation, but will they understand my passion?
Or is it me who is selfish?


I thought It would be great if I dated a smart and a hot guy at the same time but why it always ends with a pain
I thought every innocent people always the nicest, but I am wrong

All the principles I have since I was young now break into pieces.
Yeah I know I am bad!
I know I am selfish!
But, don't I have a right to live my life?

I'd like to fulfill my parents' will and my passion

I have tried my best to be better but ends up people hate me


I have tried to stick to my principle but I end up choosing care about people instead of myself
I have tried to believe that every good boy is always good inside

But I realize that I have to wait a little longer
I have to pretend that I'm okay

I can't force people to accept me
I have to admit that I am nothing compared to others
I have to admit that I have to wait a little longer  for the right time
I have to learn how to accept myself

I learn that bad means good
I learn that when people ignore me means I have the dozen people await
I learn that bad means good
When my heart badly hurt means I will be strong enough to face the future
I learn that bad means good
When I'm afraid that means It's worth to try
I learn that bad means good
by the time I keep failing, means I have to be patient and trust in God time even though people said it is impossible
 I learn that bad means well when I learn to love my imperfect self


I learn that good means bad
When I know that not every good boy in the outside always good in the inside
I learn good means bad
When I have to care about myself first and  more than caring people around
I learn good means bad
When I stay inside my shell rather than take the first step


Until then I must fight alone
Until then I must believe in myself

Until then I will thank those who said

''I will support every passion you have, as long as you don't give up on yourself''
''I know how you feel because people won't understand what and how you fight''








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