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There's no more 10 years

It's been 10 years for keeping you inside my mind
It's been 10 years i have this feeling one sided
It's been 10 years i have waiting for nothing

It's true about my feeling for you
It's true then every time you come out in my mind i smile
It's true every time i remember things happened in the past i smiled wi
dely


But.. People say i am too naive
People say i am too stupid holding on you for 10 years
People say i have no hope holding on this feeling for you

I should have let this feeling go
I should have let my heart choose a new love story

But why that's too hard?
whenever i try to move on, my heart will back to you again
Why it's hard to let this memories gone?
Why do i still smile even when i know about one-sided-love?

other people may appreciate how long i can keep my feeling on one person like you
and the others may laugh at me, saying that i am too naive

At the first i think that i don't mind to wait for you for another 10 years
I think when i keep waiting for another 10 years i could keep praying for you
but now i feel like we are not meant to be

From now on i wanna say
"There's no more 10 years"

I will try to move on
I will try to let this feeling you, though i should face the risk
It's true that i will miss you someday, 
It's true that i will miss all things once happened
It's true that i'm going to lose some of me

But...
I have right to feel happy the way you feel
I have lots of dreams i wanna achieve 
I don't want to burden myself due to hurts

From now on..
I just want to fix myself
I want to keep myself from love thing

 Though somehow i will feel lonely
It may seem quiet
But still i will try

There's no more 10 years to wait for uncertainty
It's enough for being fool for 10 years

Thank you for 10 years
Thank you for all the cold things happen to me
Thank you for showing me that i am a loyal one

If something meant to be there'll be a way 
But since we're not meant to be.. so i guess it's time to move on

Thank you for being my first love who stay for 10 years
Thank you for being the reason why i love studying, i'm glad that was you :)


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