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How I realize that..

Oh no!
Did i capture your heart?
Did i own your heart once?
Did you feel the same way about me in the past?

I thought i'm too close at that time..
I felt i make the stupidest thing ever..
Fell for you..Got close to you..

How i realize that it was totally wrong
totally it was a big mistake..

It happened..
When i knew the fact that you and her together..
Still with an innocence face i could still smile even laugh with you..

Knowing the truth..knowing the pain..
*sigh* but what could i do at that time..
you already with her..

I don't know how long exactly it was..
the one thing i know you and her are together till now..
I can see you get along with her..such a good couple..

Is it already 2 years since i lost myself?
I guess so..
I've been looking for myself that long..

Keep on searching how did i look
keep wondering how was i..
but still i have no answer..

These days all people know that i'm bad..
all people know just bad things about..
Isn't it that you and her want for such a long?

To make people judge me as the bad guy?

How i realize..??
That's not true..
People don't know anything about me..
They don't know what's the exact thing that happen once..


So.. this is how i tell you..

I realize that..
i used to loved you unconditionally..
i used to trust those who i called as 'friend' till come the betrayal..
i used to smile whenever it hurts..
i used to keep on loving you when i know you with her..

BUT WHY I CAN'T DO THAT THESE DAY???
WHY IT'S HARD TO BE LIKE THAT??

Am i changing?
Am i now the bad guy??

I don't want to live in hatred heart!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to feel the way i used to be..
I want to have those who i can trust again

How i realize..???
that i could have and find the other new and better someday?



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