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A Girl's Love Cycle

" You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it. "




 L . . O . . V . . E
One word with a millions meaning
One word which can caused a million emotions
One word which can create an Angel and Devil at the different period
One word that has unpredictable ending.

A girl, a boy
yeah both of us have our own stories of love
It can be love we have with God,Parents,friends or even our lover
That emotion we get can change us into another personality

Love cycle . . ?


It's started with two persons met as a stranger
then they start a new relationship and the result as friend
Time passed,both of them get even closer then become bestfriend
Having a lot of commons and feel comfortable then they become a lover.

BUT . . .

When a distance, or even time separate them it makes them miss each other
Then  that girl starts to be protective
While that boy becomes uncomfortable with that situation
So then when time passed and always like that
Finally they break up and turn into a stranger, waiting for another love . .




As a girl, It's hard for me to starts a new love story with a lover
Since I know how does it feel ..
when the boy you love not loving you back
when you fall in love you are having fun looking at him from a far
when you meet him you pretend not look at him
when he disappear,you keep looking for him
when everybody knows you love him and make it to mock you
when you know the boy you love has a crush and she's perfect while you are just a loser
when you keep dreaming about him but he never treat you like his crush
when you get dumped after he knows your feeling
when you get kicked out from his life by all his fan-girls

It's hard.. but i'm glad i still have God by my side
i still have my parents and sister to cheer me up
i still have friends to through that things
I'm glad in this life there are  many things to be loved and thanked for

But, am i deserved to be loved by any boy like they see that perfect girl ?
will i have my own romantic story that i dream about ?
will i be confident with who i am ?


I do have that feeling in my mind
I do have a lot of words to speak up
but i can't..
I'm afraid ..

I have fall for him for a long time
that feels on and off, but i'm not sure about him
So it will be nice if i just standing here looking at him from a far
Then find him go away and even further

The next chapter i began a new story but with the same ending
even more miserable..

Today, i realize that love comes to me when i see that guy
I keep smiling whenever i speak with him,
I'm happy to see his face
Happy to hear his voice and he did encourage me well

but . .

I'm afraid to open my heart for another love story
I'm afraid of getting hurt again
afraid of all the lies
afraid that i might end up with tears
afraid that i might end up y kicked out and dumped again

So i just lock my heart
I just try to survive to fight my heart
that i'm still afraid of love.


by: Fraulein14













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