Fraulein14

If only time machine did exist.. Will i able to turn back the time ? If i could.. I wish we didn't meet each other I wish we didn't have any story created I wish i never knew you, or even them.. but,hey! Look at this~~ You and them already mock at me You and them already hate me... So now.. We're just strangers... or We are eternally enemy? Yeah enemy to die cos we can't forgive thing that hurt We are just strangers.. to each other.. Strangers who only left some of terrible memory behind

Cinta ? apakah hal itu enak? Cinta ? apakah jatuh cinta itu indah? Cinta ? apakah memang ada sebuah ketulusan atau permainan kata belaka? Sejauh kaki ku melangkah, menapaki kehidupan kadang kala ku menanjak ke atas kadang kala ku terjatuh tanpa ada yang menopang kadang kala ku menikmati duniaku tanpa seseorang untuk berbagi Cinta ? Perlukah bagiku cinta itu? Perlukah aku untuk mengecap cinta? Perlukah cinta itu ku ingat? Lucu memang.. Banyak pujangga menuliskan ''Oh..indahnya dunia ku saat cinta mempertemukan kita'' ''Oh..belahan jiwa,kapankah kau datang menjemput di dunia cinta kita?'' bagiku itu omong kosong.. Cinta yang ku kenal bukan cinta seperti itu.. Cinta yang ku kenal penuh kepahitan Cinta yang pernah ku rasakan penuh pengkhianatan Cinta yang ku alami penuh tragedi.. yaa..tragedi.. lantas,mengapa menurut mu,dia dan mereka cinta itu agung? jika memang cinta itu agung, mengapa aku merasakan kepahitan,pengkhianat...

I'm seriously shocked to know God really hears my pain,my sorrow,and even my prayer about the time i passed in Roleplayer *if you had read my post you will know why* I just.. well i suppose not being like a happy person on people's sorrow yeahh to be honest i'm not happy I just feel relived. Good night Lord, It's been a long time You make me survive facing those betrayal,facing those who had betrayed me. You control my mind and my behave how to act and speak in front of those betrayal.  It was hard and painful inside me.. But,somehow i believe that's for my own sake I feel blessing to face this first cos i believe there's a rainbow after my unstoppable rain There will be someone new who will do better and tonight i don't wanna be happy cos of those who betrayed me has a pain i don't wanna said ''yeah you see that's for what you did''  NOO!! Tonight .. I wanna thank You Lord for always stay by my side for al...

Friends ? All what people wants  A little thing that can mess  A thing that we try to protect, to love, to forgive. Love ? Yeah,so easy to say L-O-V-E but.. can you do ''LOVE'' your friends with all yours ? so easy to say L-O-V-E but.. will you always understand your friends ? Protect ? world is hard world is cruel Have you ever been thinking '' why should i need them,while in other hand i can't even take a good care of my life?'' or ''why need to care about their life too while my life is suffering?'' SELFISH, EGO!!! YEAHH That's what we trully are!! Wants to put our aim first Wants to hear a compliment from others yeah yeah yeah~~  So .. CAN YOU PROTECT YOUR FRIENDS WHILE YOU CAN'T PROTECT YOU ? FORGIVE ? ''It's easy to forgive friends then enemies'' that's what we usually hear right? but in fact ? It's hard to forgive your friends...

Telinga Tuhan tidak kurang tajam untuk mendengarkan doamu,bahkan jeritan hatimu,Dia tahu. Tangan Tuhan tidak kurang panjang untuk menolong,hanya Dia mau kamu untuk menunggu dan percaya Mata Tuhan tidak pernah terpejam,tak sedetikpun berkedip memandang dari Surga tentang hidupmu. Hanya 1 Suara Tuhan. Dapatkah kamu mendengar Dia? Dapatkah kamu dengar Dia memanggil namamu dengan lembut,melebihi kekasihmu,melebihi suara musuhmu,melebihi kicauan burung? Buka telingamu untuk Dia Buka hatimu untuk Dia masuki Lapangkan hatimu bekerja bersama YESUS ♥

Time passed.. Life must go on.. People left and come. Life and people are changing That's how do i feel, that's how do i see about life.. How will i survive with this scars? How will i live while the wounds still exist? How will i able to live in my life when i even can't accept it? It's almost 1 year since being betrayed, being dumped well yeah i always face being dumped and betrayed but this time it's different i don't know how should i explain it, but it seems the most painful,the worst betrayal ever that i ever experienced in my life.. I try to move forward to live in my life to face what's going on in reality yeahh i can face my life i can live in my life now thanks to those betrayal thanks to those who left this scars thanks to those who once make me afraid to continue my life even i'm afraid to love my idols Especially i thank God for sending someone to cheer me up for sending someone to make me realize i deserve to...

After a long long way After taking a lot of time to wait After faces all those pains learning from that wounds how to stand up and stay strong To be honest i never worry if my tears fall for a million times i never worry when i'm alone cos i used to be alone, yeah alone sits here till someone recognize my presence but it's different now we're not close enough but you listen to my sorrow to open up your ears to hear my pain your encouragement.. your smile.. your eyes.. time passed.. i feel something different about you i'm not sure what it supposed to be could it be love? How can i fall after having lots of trauma from thing called love? I don't know how to react in front of you all things seem wrong I'm automatically smile just seeing you from a far could it be love? After being hurt for a lot of time After felt the way being neglected but all i want right now just looking at you and smile stay near you and i can...