It was starting with a simple hello
With that greet after few years we haven't talked to
I didn't know what was that for
But i felt so warm, so comfortable when you accompany at that night
I didn't understand how should i react
Should i feel happy? or should i feel nothing
A crybaby like me feel grateful for having you by that time
I was thinking at that time, Father in Heaven sent you to cheer me up
I was also thinking the opposite one..That it was just a coincidence
All the conversation had gone
I tried to catch you, but i had no idea where're you
I felt like a fool
It hurts
I felt like you're making fun of me
I felt like you're playing with me
Tho deep inside i feel that you're always being nice to me
but...well it hurts somehow
Time passed..
And there were you who greet me again
YEAH AGAIN! with a simple hello
With a random topics, with a spice little care
I told myself not to believe in you anymore
I told myself that you came when you're free
I'm just a gas stop when you're out of gas
But..Wait..
I tried to remember things behind
It was me who did that disgusting thing
It was me who come to you when i feel down
I felt like i'm using you for benefits
So unforgivable
So, then i guess i have to pay for that now
When i try to remember the previous time we had
I was focusing on another..
But still i have you whenever i need
Still you care,
I feel like having a brother
Even when i can't stop focusing on that person you're always there
That person once being a part of me
That person used to be the one i admire
All the memories i had with that person.. i still have it all
but not all, it can be said
"All memories are back, but he's gone"
Then i try to leave that story alone
I try not to hurt you,
I try to respect you
Then now i realize how kind you are
How reliable you are
Slowly you capture my eyes
Slowly i find a new hope
but slowly i try not to put some hope
I love having conversation with you
I love spending my time with you
I love everything i do and it reminds me of you
But, i feel hurt
I just don't get it
I move on from that person thanks to you
But i feel the same pain like before
I feel like there's no day without tears and fears when i remember you
It's shaking me up, but when we talk i try to hold it
Whenever we finish talking to each other i smile
I feel relieved
I feel like waking up from a nice dream and ..
I'm starting missing you
The moment i open my eyes, i keep my self on ground
I have lot of wish with you but i can't
I have a promise that i can't break, and you have commitment that i have to respect
So then i cheer my self up
The moment i close my eyes i have you like picture in my head
i can't even go to bed..i think i'm going crazy..
It'll be good if i know how's your respond,
but in my point of view you did the same to other girls
you're such a nice person..and i like it
but...
when you're nice to me it's hurting me, yet i want you to be mine
what a selfish wish
so please stop being nice to me
it hurts having this word stuck in my tongue
so please stop being nice to me
it hurts living in my own imagination about you
But i can't deny that I miss you
I miss the moment I spend with you
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