Time flies so fast, i even don't recognize what time is it, what day and the date...
I open up my eyes, move my body slowly from my bed..
preparing myself to face another ordinary day as usual..
I have a dream..
I have a wish..
I wanna try anything i want..
I wanna explore myself more..
But this is not me!!
When facing my reflection on the mirror, i could i'm changing..
I even don't know who i am..
I lose myself!!
I lose everything about me..
Where i can find it?
Will i be able to bring it back?
Will my environment accept that???
I feel confused, feels aching in my heart..
Yeah, maybe i;m changing to show those who has changed already..
But i feel uncomfortable.. This is not me..definitely..
I prefer my old self though many people hate it..
I prefer to be hated to lose myself..
It's better for me to be alone whole time rather than i can't recognize myself...
Time passes quickly as usual, and i have no idea where my old self is..
I feel no hope..
I feel empty..
I even don't remember reason why i'm doing all of this..
I have no spirit to fight back for everything..
So.. i choose to hide.. wearing a mask is better
Pretending i'm fine..
Pretending i;m capable..
just because i don't want people mock and talk about me something bad..
moreover in order for a prestige..
BUT STILL I DON'T GET IT ENOUGH!!
I hate changing..
I just wanna be back to the old me..
So, please don't hate me for who i am..
Don't hate me cos i'm too childish, honesty, curious..
This is the way how i enjoy myself...
Please don't hate me cos of my silly imagination..
cos of my silly writing done here..
This's how much i'm enjoying myself..
Don't Hate Me cos you don't know the reason for everything i did
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